As I was sitting in the salon the other day, my stylist and
I were having a conversation that inspired this blog post. We talked about how
our relationships with God changed our lives for the better. We finally found
peace within. That is something that could
never be taken away, a sound peace of mind.
Me without God
I was always worried about
something! I worried about what people thought of me. I worried about my future
constantly. I worried about my family and friends.
I found myself being jealous of the next person. Someone would get this
incredible opportunity, and I would think ‘How did that happen for them, and
not for me?’ I found myself wanting what
others had. It could have been a new relationship, a house, a job opportunity,
a college scholarship, anything that made someone else shine; I wanted it too.
I started to think that maybe I wasn’t good enough, smart enough, or pretty
enough for some things.
When I started to get
opportunities I never felt good enough. Things would come into place for me,
but I just felt like I’d just mess things up in the long run. Some
opportunities were left unpursued because of it.
I was surrounded in dark thoughts. Sometimes I thought that life wasn’t
even worth living. There would be days when I didn’t even want to wake up. I
wanted to die. I was sick of being who I was. I thought I’d never amount to
anything, because of my circumstances. I hated myself for a long time. I could
never get a real peace of mind. Bad thoughts would always cloud it.
I could be surrounded by a crowd full of people, but still feel
lonely. I assumed that a boyfriend could
fix that problem.
Something was always missing in my spirit. There was always a since of
emptiness in my heart. I could never
figure out what was missing at the time.
I was easily angered. If someone said something out of the way to me, or
did something to me I could never let it go.
I could hold a mean grudge.
There are no worries
I find myself not worrying, because He is the author of my days. He knows
everything about me, so I cast all my burdens unto Him.
‘Give your burdens to the LORD, and
he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.’-Psalm
I have learned that what God has for me is for me. It can never be taken
away. When others receive these many gifts and blessings its apart of THEIR
journey, not mine. Everyone’s life is different. For example: someone may have
a singing voice with many runs, and I cannot do as many runs like them while I
sing. That’s okay, because those runs they are using are a part of their life’s
ministry. My jazzy voice is used for mine. We are created different for a
reason. We travel to different places for a reason. Eventually every one of us
will have our day in the sun, so what is there to be jealous about? Life isn’t
I have realized that I am worthy of all the joys that life brings. I am
worthy of love. I am worthy of the great opportunities that come my way. I am
worthy of God’s love. Some people think that they’re not worthy to have good
things happen to them, and some think that they’re too far gone to have God’s
love. I thought that once upon a time (sometimes the enemy still pulls that
card on me). That is completely FALSE. No sin is too big for God. Nothing is
too big for God.
‘I am the LORD, the God of all the
peoples of the world. Is anything too hard for me?’-Jeremiah 32:27
Be free! I am worthy. We are worthy of all great things, blessings, and
I am light
Instead of being so stuck in my emotions, I decided that I wanted to be a
light unto the world. God is light, and I am created in His image, so that
makes me light too.
I am never alone
There was constantly a pity party in my mind. I thought well I’m single
and lonely. In actuality we’re never alone.
I remember texting a friend telling her how lucky she was to find love,
so she’s never alone. She told me that I was loved too, but just in different
ways. I am loved by my family and friends. I am loved by God. These people were
a constant in my lives. There is always someone around me that loves me dearly.
I basically took that love for granted, because I thought love was about having
a significant other. In actuality love is about sacrifice. My mom sacrifices
what she could be doing just to take care of me. Jesus sacrificed His life, so
that I could be forgiven and not die in my sins. I’m never alone. I am
surrounded by love each day of my life.
I am full
My spirit is full. I lack nothing anymore.
‘So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully
developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.’-James 1:4
I find joy in each moment that I breathe. Instead of dwelling on the bad
things and getting stuck in useless emotions I find joy in the Lord. It’s all
that I have.
‘Rejoice in the Lord always; again
I will say, Rejoice.’-Philippians 4:4
not saying that it’s easy, but I have to just let go.
What were you like before your relationship with God? How
have you changed since then? Maybe you decided you want a change for the
better. It’s never too late to be freed from the chains that are surrounding
that you are loved by the Most High, and I love you too.
We have goals and dreams. It’s just a part of being human.
We have to have vision to make this world a better place, and also to glorify
God’s kingdom. God has instilled this purpose for us in the very fiber of our
being. When He created us individually He had this plan to use us for His
glorification in a world that can be dark and weary.
you get in tune with God you will figure out this purpose written for your
life. Along with this purpose God will begin to instill His promises for your
life. These promises are for your very own well-being. He makes these promises
to you because He wants to bless you, but with these blessings comes many
sacrifices, and even trials and tribulation. Lean not into your own
understanding, but in God’s. During your trying times that will be when God
will mold you and get all the things that are not like Him out of you.
book of Joshua Israel was promised an inheritance from God. God promised them a
land flowing with milk and honey, vineyards, and housing. It was theirs for the
taking, but this inheritance came with some work. They even had to go to war
for it. God reminded them that in order to get this inheritance they needed
faith and courage.
a plan for you; your very own ‘Promise Land’. You’re going to have to put in the work, and
you may even have to fight for it. You must have faith and courage to hold it.
There will be idols you will have to give up idols along the way. You will have
to let go of bad habits. You will have to sacrifice the things that bring you
pleasure, and you will have to allow God to take you out of your comfort zone,
along with everything that is familiar to you.
not going to be easy. There may even be a time when you feel like you’re going
nowhere. Even the Israelites wondered in the wilderness for forty years, and
that’s because God had to mold them. He had to take them, and make a new people
out of them. You must allow Him to mold you in the process.
has placed a vision in your heart just GO FOR IT! Take what God wants to give
you. It may not just get handed to you, because you have to put some work into
it. Recently I’ve been working on art. I have hope that my craft will get
better, but it won’t get better if I create nothing. You have to work for it,
and once you get to that place all glory be to God. You will even appreciate it
more because you’ve worked so hard for it.
It takes a ton of work in your craft, and in yourself to get
to your very own Promise Land. Thank goodness we serve a God that loves us and
never breaks His promises! “So the Lord gave to Israel all the land of
which He had sworn to give to their fathers, and they took possession of it and
dwelt in it. The Lord gave them rest all around, according to all that He had
sworn to their fathers. And not a man of all their enemies stood against them;
the Lord delivered all their enemies into their hand. Not a word failed of any
good thing which the Lord had spoken to Israel. All came to pass. (Joshua
21:43-45)” How amazing is that!
Remember that Jesus loves you, and that I love you too!
“Papa Duck” 2017.
The world is constantly yelling at us to chase after
superficial things. There’s nothing
wrong with money, cars, and clothes, but these things become a problem when we
let them consume us. Mark 8:36 asks
us, ‘What good is it for someone to gain
the whole world, yet forfeit their soul?’ There are people doing whatever
means possible to get the ‘American Dream’ at the expense of their very own
souls. There is a serious problem when you look in the mirror and you can’t
even recognize the person you are anymore. There are a lot of unhappy rich people in the
world. They shouldn’t want for anything. Why is that? There is something
missing, and that something is God.
I am not saying that all rich
people did terrible things to get where they are. What I am saying is that
these things that we work for means nothing if God didn’t order our steps in
the process. ‘The heart of man plans his
way, but the Lord establishes his steps’ -Proverbs 16:9. We have all these
dreams and plans planted in our hearts for a reason, but these plans are
meaningless without God. ‘I have seen
all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a
chasing after the wind’- Ecclesiastes 1:14. He gave us talents and gifts,
so how can we leave Him out of the process in pursuing our dreams?
funny part is when we exclude God from our paths we never feel good enough to
be in our purpose. There isn’t this extra push to get us in the right
direction. We carry this huge load on ourselves, as we allow God to sit on the
sidelines. He’s waiting for us to cast all of our worries and burdens onto Him.
He’s yelling at us to include Him, and put Him in the game. He wants us to have
a bright future filled with aspirations and dreams. ‘For I know the plans I have for you,
declares the Lord,
plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope’-Jeremiah
9:11. In the meantime
we’re out here chasing something we weren’t supposed to be chasing. No wonder
doors have been slammed in our faces, or that we are miserable at the jobs we
are in. No wonder why our plans of networking aren’t going our way. God never
told us to go to some of these places in the first place.
You’re probably wondering, “How
do I go into that path that was meant for me?”
The answer is so simple. You chase God. Once you get to know the Father in heaven He
will direct you into your purpose. ‘But
seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be
given to you as well’-Matthew 6:33. Once I went after the Father, and read
His word all of these ideas and doors started to open. God has shown and taken
me places I could have never imagined. I’m doing things that I would have never
done years ago. I never felt good enough, or smart enough in the past. Once I
found out what the Creator thought of me my confidence in my gifts sored. I am
allowing Him to use me in all things that I do. It’s no longer just about me
and what I’m feeling, it is now all about Him and the people that need a
glimpse of God through me. ‘As each has received a gift, use it to
serve one another, as good stewards of God’s varied grace’-1 Peter 4:10.
There are things you need to
realize as you chase your dreams:
You are enough and worthy of all things God has
in store for your life.
There are NO limits for God, so believe in all
the plans He has for you (big and small).
Do not tell everyone about your calling.
Sometimes God’s vision for our lives is too big for small minded people (you do
not need any discouragement). Stick with what God said.
Once you chase after God, and chase your dreams you will become
fulfilled in life. It is so amazing to know that the Creator of all things
loves you, and He has this plan for you. We all have a purpose. What are you
waiting for? Go chase God and let Him direct you into the plan that He has for
Remember that you are loved by the Most High, and that I
love you too!
“I am Light” 2017.