“For to you it has
been granted on behalf of Christ, not only to believe in Him, but also to
suffer for His sake.” – Philippians 1:29
I’ve had some major losses this year, and the crazy thing is this year isn’t even
over. I so badly wanted to skip this season. I wanted to skip the year 2019. I wanted to get out of the season of
depression. I couldn’t afford to feel depressed. I thought that too many
people were counting on me to bring them joy, so I suffered in silence about my feelings.
gets glory in all things. He gets glory in my laughter. He gets glory in my
creativity, so who am I to think that God cannot get glory out of my suffering? This season has caused me to ask Him more. It has caused me to
thank Him more. It has caused me to worship Him more, even when I don’t feel
I found myself taking out my frustration on those near to me. I’m sorry if I hurt you.
I was searching for understanding. I was searching for Him, because I was desperate to
feel joy and peace again. I was desperate
for Him. There will always be a season where we need to rely on Him, so we will not forget or take Him for granted. If everything were perfect there would be no need for God.
are uncomfortable something is being transformed in us. Before a caterpillar
turns into a butterfly it is in a cocoon. The cocoon isn’t a comfortable
place to be in, but after being uncomfortable the caterpillar is now transformed with wings, and
flies away into its destiny. The amazing thing about the butterfly is that it doesn’t
fly against the wind, but flies with the wind instead.
Even my Savior suffered at one point, but He didn’t stay there long. He is now sitting at the right hand of the Father for eternity. My suffering did not last long either. I am where God wants me to be. I feel joy, and peace right now. That doesn’t mean it won’t change. We grow every day, and when we grow things get uncomfortable.
gets glory in all things, so I will surrender to His will. I may lose, but I will gain again. Perseverance brings good character, so
have Your way God. I have faith that I will not sit in hopelessness.
Know that God hasn’t forgotten about you. He sees your
frustration. It’s okay to feel the way that you feel.
Do not fly against it, but fly with it. Express your feelings. Do not hide in
darkness. You are human. Remember that after every storm the sun will come out again. Let’s get uncomfortable. Suffering is not your destination. It’s just apart of the journey.
Jesus loves you, and so do I.