“Trust in the LORD
with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways
submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.” –Proverbs 3:5-6
my life I have been in discomfort. I never complain much, but living with a
disability can be overwhelming at times. There were/are days when I felt
uncomfortable in my body; whether it be not being able to move freely or having
people stare in curiosity. It has been this way my entire life. I have accepted
that it will never change while I’m on earth.
find that in my weakest moments God gets all of the glory. He gets glory in my
body not being able to move freely. For instance: years ago my wheelchair had
broken in a public place. It would not move. I was literally stuck at the top
of this huge hill. Thankfully there were people willing to come and push me.
They could’ve left me behind, but they didn’t. I was so embarrassed at that
moment, but as I look back at my life that is when I saw God in others. They
became caretakers and servers. They could’ve kept going about their day, but
they decided not to leave me behind.
I saw Jesus in them. Jesus cared
for others. He served strangers as He walked among us. He never leaves one of
us behind. In my embarrassment and discomfort, He shined. He brought humility,
light, and love in the situation. I don’t know what those people were going
through the days before that, but I know that they were filled with joy because
they helped me. Who knew that me needing
help could help others?
I don’t like being around random crowds of people because of stares. They make
me feel uncomfortable. I remember being in a parking lot laughing and cracking
jokes with my mom. Little did I know there was this man was watching me. He then came up to me and thanked me for
smiling. Usually, I’d feel like I want to hide under a rock, but after hearing
his story I’m glad he saw me smiling. I even had the chance to tell him why I
smile, and why I have so much joy.
to get very uncomfortable having people stare at me, or having strangers help
me when I’m in need (sometimes I still do), but I’ve realized that God is getting
glory in me being uncomfortable. In those moments God shines even brighter. I
bring light to others in my weaknesses. Life isn’t meant to be comfortable.
or disabled; nobody is truly comfortable. Do not be ashamed of your weaknesses.
It’s okay to need help. As Christians, our lives are meant to reflect the
gospel. I know that being uncomfortable is not fun, but by you being
uncomfortable that’s where God shines the most. That’s when we lean on Him the
most. Jesus was uncomfortable too before
and while hanging on that cross, but He knew that He had a mission. He was
about His Father’s business.
through life thinking about fulfilling God’s purpose, no matter how
uncomfortable it may be. His glory is in our uncomfortable moments too.
“For to you it has
been granted on behalf of Christ, not only to believe in Him, but also to
suffer for His sake.” – Philippians 1:29
I’ve had some major losses this year, and the crazy thing is this year isn’t even
over. I so badly wanted to skip this season. I wanted to skip the year 2019. I wanted to get out of the season of
depression. I couldn’t afford to feel depressed. I thought that too many
people were counting on me to bring them joy, so I suffered in silence about my feelings.
gets glory in all things. He gets glory in my laughter. He gets glory in my
creativity, so who am I to think that God cannot get glory out of my suffering? This season has caused me to ask Him more. It has caused me to
thank Him more. It has caused me to worship Him more, even when I don’t feel
I found myself taking out my frustration on those near to me. I’m sorry if I hurt you.
I was searching for understanding. I was searching for Him, because I was desperate to
feel joy and peace again. I was desperate
for Him. There will always be a season where we need to rely on Him, so we will not forget or take Him for granted. If everything were perfect there would be no need for God.
are uncomfortable something is being transformed in us. Before a caterpillar
turns into a butterfly it is in a cocoon. The cocoon isn’t a comfortable
place to be in, but after being uncomfortable the caterpillar is now transformed with wings, and
flies away into its destiny. The amazing thing about the butterfly is that it doesn’t
fly against the wind, but flies with the wind instead.
Even my Savior suffered at one point, but He didn’t stay there long. He is now sitting at the right hand of the Father for eternity. My suffering did not last long either. I am where God wants me to be. I feel joy, and peace right now. That doesn’t mean it won’t change. We grow every day, and when we grow things get uncomfortable.
gets glory in all things, so I will surrender to His will. I may lose, but I will gain again. Perseverance brings good character, so
have Your way God. I have faith that I will not sit in hopelessness.
Know that God hasn’t forgotten about you. He sees your
frustration. It’s okay to feel the way that you feel.
Do not fly against it, but fly with it. Express your feelings. Do not hide in
darkness. You are human. Remember that after every storm the sun will come out again. Let’s get uncomfortable. Suffering is not your destination. It’s just apart of the journey.
“Now when He had left speaking, He said unto Simon, “Launch
out unto the deep, and let down your nets for a drought,” and Simon answering
said unto Him, “Master, we have toiled all the night, and have taken nothing:
nevertheless at thy word I will let down the net.” And when they had this done, they in closed a
great multitude of fish: and their net brake. -Luke 5:4-6
I read this scripture today it just spoke to me on so many levels. I can relate
to Simon in this passage. Sometimes it seems like I’m working so hard and
getting nothing in return. Yet I can’t stop working because I’m doing what I was
called to do. Out of nowhere I get the push to work harder, and go deeper. I’m
obedient to Him, and because of that He never ceases to amaze me.
matter how hard the labor keep going my friend. Even when they call you crazy keep going my
friend. Even when you feel like giving
up keep going my friend. No matter how still the waters are keep going my
friend. There’s so many people behind you’re obedience. There’s a multitude of
blessings waiting just for you in the deep end.